Hello, Let me tell you that before yesterday, I mean on Friday I went to my appointment BALANCE Liliana, my nutritionist .... I did mourn !.... porfin I felt understood!
She was the same dietitian who attended (Dianne) the anorexic who has been dead more or less a year and came in Pirri the Colombian program.
He told me that she has had pasientes worse, though they have come to 25kgs! and are still alive, because if they decided to live them, encambio Dianita not why he died, she did not want to stop being anorexic.
I sometimes I wonder if I cease to be so or not, but it's part of me is already half of my soul, I feel I can not let go, I feel that Ana and dominates me and I like ... 'But without envargo I feel bad, lonely, ugly, rejected, misunderstood, angry, irritable, tired, dizzy, etc ... All the time! And I'm tired, but I feel that I can be happy being fat ... following way! BECAUSE I AM A DAMN COW! (And I want to change that!: (
ate nothing that day, because yesterday my Grandmother Saturday breast side met and knew I was going to play ..... and if you ate lunch: (I felt pessimistic! Guilty .... try to vomit but could not, there were many people around. Like today, take tea with my other grandmother and I felt bad, I cried as I felt guilty!
also try to throw up, but I was afraid ....: (
NOT TO DO, GET OUT OR GET OUT? Today
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